Just like that, a blog is created. (Thanks, Squarespace.)
They say a person is born every 3 seconds. Isn't that mindblowing? Just imagine a new human, tangible, with a consciousness, with the potential to be the subject of my sondering, materializing in thin air right now (after 9 months of gestation, of course).
And right now. And now.
I wonder how many blogs took a first breath in the time 3 seconds it took to write this sentence. This blog isn't a new birth though. It's more of a revival. A blog, reincarnated!
Basically, this is not my first rodeo (ROLL CREDITS).
I've started many blogs in the past when I was young and stupid. I've always liked the idea of imposing my views on the world since everything I say is of consequence (only joking). But maybe I do have some important things to say. Since humanity has been deprived of my voice upon the death of my last blog (destroyed last year along with its home world, Jux, a visual-centric storytelling platform where I was an intern in 2012), I've been biding my time, waiting for the right moment to make an appearance again.
Honestly, I was disheartened by the loss. I had been an intern at the company in the summer months of 2012 and thoroughly enjoyed my experience in that Soho-based startup. They announced their demise last year. It was sad - although, the team I worked with had moved on long before after financial difficulties led to a previous buy-out. I didn't even bother to export my data. Everything is impermanent, eh?
Since then, I'd planned to start a new blog a few times. Each attempt failed due to a lack of direction.
There's so much content being produced on the internet every single day. What's the point? Why create or make things when so many things are being created and made? Can I contribute anything of value? Will my writing even be consumed?
In the midst of my inaction, I started to consume heavily. Once you fall into a consumption habit, it's hard to dig yourself out. There are just too many good TV shows and films out there. There's always another article on the internet to read. (Ironically, many of the ones I click on are about writing, productivity, storytelling, and being creative. It's easy to fool yourself into thinking that you're just trying "to learn" the art of narratives by indulging in a Game of Thrones binge session.)
This changed earlier last week. I was browsing Medium when I spotted an article titled "Why you should have a blog." After reading the article, I found myself inspired by the author, Lauren Modery. Her blog, Hipstercrite, which is wonderful, is now 7 years old. (When was the last time I worked on one thing for 7 years?)
Recently, I'd begun to realize my writing shouldn't be about pleasing others or trying to change the world. It shouldn't have anything to do with my site visits. This isn't my job (I'm a marketer) where every piece of content I publish is produced for the sake of building a brand, driving traffic, and converting leads. This is my passion. This is writing because it's what I want to do.
Writing is also hard. And that's why I need to learn to love the process.
However, realistically, everyone writes with the hopes that they'll be read. And while I don't often realize it, it does matter that I am writing as a minority American (I'm Chinese American; my parents were born in Taiwan). The more minority voices there are, the more society will understand the diversity of our collective experiences. I hope the least I can do is contribute to a better understanding of the American experience.
So after months of trying to write again, Modery's piece was the spark that ignited the fire, spurring me into action (for which I am grateful).
So here I am starting a new blog. Instead of reading listicles about how to write (step 1: close this tab), I'm going to push myself to log into my Squarespace account instead. I'm still young and stupid, but maybe I'll find something worthy to say while doing something I love.
Perhaps on May 11, 2022, I'll be celebrating this blog's 7th birthday.
P.S. I wrote the intro with a single goal in mind: to use the word sonder. See: Buzzfeed's 32 of the Most Beautiful Words in the English Language.
P.P.S. First blog posts are always so awkward. Should it be self-aware and announce the blog's birth? Should you just play it cool and dive straight into a 2,000-word piece of social commentary?